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Thursday, 12 May 2011

hi all

sorry i havent been up to date i havent been well with my bipolar but im on the up !!!!im trying a new style of art called whimsical its realy cool.ive got all my supplys now incense oils and candles etc....ive also got some fantastic friends on facebook who are great .STOKE CITY F.C. are in the FA CUP FINAL !!! can you belive it ????so stoke-on-trent is buzzing at the moment ...keeping it short for today love and light melly moonstone )O(

Thursday, 10 March 2011


been for my reiki today had another fantastic vizulization but im keeping it private this week i will share that my reiki master could feel realy powerful hot energy coming frm my head so i was happy with it ....still dont feel 100 % so keeping it short tonight :) the picture is my eye :)

Wednesday, 9 March 2011


i havent been on for a while havent been well with my bipolar keep smiling but sometimes inside im broken its so hard to hold everything together ,,,ive got to the stage where i dont know who to trust i always seem  to be the one doing the chasing if that makes sence ....havent realy done much art or anything but im still here to live another day :) on a positive note i had a fantastic experience when i recived reiki last thursday in my meditation artimes came to me and huged me for the whole time :)

Friday, 18 February 2011

hi all

I sit here trying to type with my oldest cat familiar spooky who is 15 snuggled on my lap had a bad week bipolar wise need get back to basics surround myself with my reiki incense and crystals a fighter so i wont let it beat me a tention headache which ive had all day ..went to my self help group echo today its a self harm group ive made some great friends their especialy wendy have a lovely conestion with her like ive known her all my life.Its half term from today so got kids 24/7 so no me time ....anyway hope my followers are o.k xxxxxx

Tuesday, 15 February 2011


havent been on for acouple of days had my bloods done this morning went art class after did two new paintings just realy tired and realy cold keeping it short today dont realy know what put grrrr bipolar grrrrr

Saturday, 12 February 2011


well as you may know i have bipolar and to be quiet honest im having a rough ride at the moment have you ever felt that your hanging on by a thread well thats how i feel at the moment im hanging on cause i so dont want to crash its so hard to pull your self back from their and im scared that one day i wont be able to.i feel guilty that my family has to live with this horrible illness .....i just want to be normal whatever normal is i have my reiki master sending me reiki healing i have the most wonderful husband who keeps me safe and cares about everything which effects mums worried which is making her ill .....thrown myself into my art again so at least im trying i will never give up fighting this im a fighter not a victim i wont let this beat me if you read this and could send me healing energy i would be so grateful bb )O(

Tuesday, 8 February 2011

what a day

well short one today have a headache from hell but still took kids swiming and mcdonalds last day of eating crap want get fit for my holiday nite xxxx

Monday, 7 February 2011

jasmines birthday

well my babys 6 today she got up opened all her cards and presents spoilt rotten lol.then went school she took lollys for all her friends .after school she came home got changed into her new clothes and we had a great party mum n dad came down we had chocolate cake and played dance on the wii what a laugh but im so tired now think i will have a early night :)

Sunday, 6 February 2011

The day before jasmines birthday

 Well carnt belive my baby is going to be 6 tommoz !jasmine -leigh clowes born 14:44 5lb 12oz she was so tiny so we nicknamed her squidgy :) been making vidios of her playing with her new toy off her nana clowes its 10:26pm now and she still awake in caitlins bed excited ...carnt wait for her to see all her presents and cards .....tea party tommorow night :)

Saturday, 5 February 2011


well i was 3 weeks late for my period but finally come on im 50%reliefed 50% disapointed ...but ive got my kids and now ive got to concentrate on my future studying crystal healing reiki ...ive got my art to so just get past feeling ill and get my self back on track again xx

Friday, 4 February 2011


well it looks like a certain person wants to play games well bring it on.....carnt go into what actually happened but i always go down fighting so looks like this summer is going to be fun.what does piss me off they live their sad little lifes and havent got the balls say anything to my face .ive got a very happy life ive got a loving husband 3 lovely kids i lovely house great friends and family ...supose thats why i get under some peoples skin! i may have some problems but i will always be better than some of the scum i live if you see me i will have a smile on my face and my head held high !!!

Wednesday, 2 February 2011


I feel terrible today dont know whether its another virus or my bipolar??? anyway my girls have been modeling today for a friend they have been dressed as Goddess's carnt wait see the pics!!keeping it short today imbloc blessings to you all )O( xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx <3 <3

Tuesday, 1 February 2011

febuary at last

dont you just hate january !! after all the hype at xmas the january comes and your skint any .....after my little moan im in a quiet mood today one of them days when you just want to sleep it away .imbloc tommorow well i will be celibrating it from dusk tonight till dusk my own little way dont think my hubbie would apreciate anything big with him being a christan !!!! and so i sit here just me and my dog ben he is a english springer spaniel whos 3 yrs old on jun 28 .he is my baby so protective of me :) for now blessed be xxxx )O( xxxxxxx

Monday, 31 January 2011

newwwwwwwwwww blog

well im going atempt to start a blog...little bit about me im happy married to my soulmate jamie ,i have 3 lovely kids caitlin,jayden and jasmine xxx im a wiccan i love reiki and crystals im well into alternative therapy i have bipolar and bpd ...but im a fighter so i keep on x